landslide

i can't get over how beautiful this is.

past vs. future

"Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over."

passion

..now this is what i call passion. just look at them together.

you gotta be..

this song makes me smile :)

damn.

pain

did you know..

my professor told us, "you learn all the important stuff you need to know in life, in kindergarten."

...crossing my fingers.

RIYI

it's amazing how love makes you feel.

i catch myself falling more and more in love with you as each day passes.

awake

i have NO idea why, but i catch myself NOT wanting to go to sleep every night.

i have no idea why.

the answer

today i caught a fly that was driving me crazy with my bare hands. not the clapping action, but the grabbing into their fist action. it was a very proud moment for me. ...but that is besides the point of why i decide to FINALLY write in my blog again.

the reasons WHY i write in these blogs are only when i'm really feeling something. when i'm really in the mood to right down my moods and what's going on in my life that i feel compelled to.

the Lord works in mysterious ways and you can really feel it.. if you just wait and listen.

for the past couple of weeks, i've been catching myself just lying in bed before i fall asleep; thinking. i remember someone saying in church that when you lay there without anything in your mind, and you just can't fall asleep, that's when the Lord is calling out to you. you rethink about your life purpose and spend an extra couple of minutes out of your day to really THINK about yourself, who you are, and what you are to do. this has been happening to me for the past couple of weeks.

i remember calling out to the Lord, not ASKING for ANYTHING but just calling out to HELP ME seek the things that are important in life. one of the things that is the most important to me is my mom and her well being. we've been struggling with financial issues for a while now because a dishonest person who worked for her took all of the business's money and left us rot in her own problems. but that's besides the point too haha

so that's all i did. i just called out to the Lord and spoke to him. one on one. just like a regular relationship a human being would have.

today, i was blessed with back to back calls from 4 different employers wanting to schedule an interview with me either this week or next week.

i knew the Lord practically placed these people right in front of me for me to choose. i was so set on focusing on school for my last year. this was a constant fight for me because i wanted to work (since i always have and wanted the constant income coming in) but after much talk, i decided that maybe focusing on school full time would be best.

when the Lord places something right in front of you for you to take and choose from, it's hard to give it up; especially since you've been praying about it.

HE is my answered prayer.

... i just hope that these interviews go well :)

uninspired

just one of those days...

forever young!

i feel invincible when i listen to this song.

untitled.

because every time i want to just give up, i'm telling myself that this (determination) will pay off in the end.

and i'm doing this not only for me, but for us.

pursuit of happiness.

so at first i was just listening to this song because i like it. a lot.

then i watched the video probably about 10 times.

then, it got me thinking.

how can such a somber sounding song, have so much life to it?

"People told me slow my road. I'm screamin' out f--- that.

Imma do just what i want. looking ahead not turning back.

if I fall, if I die, know I lived it to the fullest,

know I lived and missed some bullets.

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know

everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold

i'll be fine once i get it.

i'll be good."

what is our pursuit? what is our happiness in our long, yet short, and fragile life?

me and Russy were laying down in bed one night, cuddling, turned out to be a two and a half hour conversation about life. just life. and i think we both determined what life is about: love. love from your family. love from your friends. love from yourself!

sometimes things might not go as planned, but in the end, there's love SOMEWHERE in life. someone is always willing to give you some. and once you let them, and start living your life, you'll be on your pursuit of happiness.

as CLICHE as this sounds... i know what the pursuit of happiness is for me: "love the life you live, and live the life you love." and i couldn't be happier.

different people have their different views, but i think that the one thing in common that we all strive and look for is: happiness. we've all had it at one point. or have it already. if you're not there yet... keep pursuing.

happy birthday to me!

cheers!!

to being 22! (i'm a day late but who cares.)

i think people come and go in your life for a reason.

unfortunately, heartbreak is inevitable during this "life" process.

but through the experiences, mistakes, and broken-ness, it has led me to you. and i can't imagine my life without you now.

"there comes a point in your life when you realize who matters,

who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will.

so don't worry about people from your past,

there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

to another fantastic year.

i'll be the first one to admit that the new years resolution i made, the next day, i broke it already. that doesn't mean i won't follow through! i have my love, my partner, pushing me towards my resolutions!

every night at 11:11, we wish (i never wish without him). i think my wish has come true.

2009 has been a WONDERFUL year.

they say that the way you spend your new years eve/new years is how your year is gonna be. i spent the start of this year the same way i spent last year: with my boyfriend and his family. just in the living room, watching tv, counting down. so i guess 2010 will be just as good as 2009.

sidenote: work hard, play even harder. (i got my grades --- another PLUS on how to start new years!!)