it's amazing how love makes you feel.
i catch myself falling more and more in love with you as each day passes.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
awake
i have NO idea why, but i catch myself NOT wanting to go to sleep every night.
i have no idea why.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
the answer
today i caught a fly that was driving me crazy with my bare hands. not the clapping action, but the grabbing into their fist action. it was a very proud moment for me. ...but that is besides the point of why i decide to FINALLY write in my blog again.
the reasons WHY i write in these blogs are only when i'm really feeling something. when i'm really in the mood to right down my moods and what's going on in my life that i feel compelled to.
the Lord works in mysterious ways and you can really feel it.. if you just wait and listen.
for the past couple of weeks, i've been catching myself just lying in bed before i fall asleep; thinking. i remember someone saying in church that when you lay there without anything in your mind, and you just can't fall asleep, that's when the Lord is calling out to you. you rethink about your life purpose and spend an extra couple of minutes out of your day to really THINK about yourself, who you are, and what you are to do. this has been happening to me for the past couple of weeks.
i remember calling out to the Lord, not ASKING for ANYTHING but just calling out to HELP ME seek the things that are important in life. one of the things that is the most important to me is my mom and her well being. we've been struggling with financial issues for a while now because a dishonest person who worked for her took all of the business's money and left us rot in her own problems. but that's besides the point too haha
so that's all i did. i just called out to the Lord and spoke to him. one on one. just like a regular relationship a human being would have.
today, i was blessed with back to back calls from 4 different employers wanting to schedule an interview with me either this week or next week.
i knew the Lord practically placed these people right in front of me for me to choose. i was so set on focusing on school for my last year. this was a constant fight for me because i wanted to work (since i always have and wanted the constant income coming in) but after much talk, i decided that maybe focusing on school full time would be best.
when the Lord places something right in front of you for you to take and choose from, it's hard to give it up; especially since you've been praying about it.
HE is my answered prayer.
... i just hope that these interviews go well :)
today i caught a fly that was driving me crazy with my bare hands. not the clapping action, but the grabbing into their fist action. it was a very proud moment for me. ...but that is besides the point of why i decide to FINALLY write in my blog again.
the reasons WHY i write in these blogs are only when i'm really feeling something. when i'm really in the mood to right down my moods and what's going on in my life that i feel compelled to.
the Lord works in mysterious ways and you can really feel it.. if you just wait and listen.
for the past couple of weeks, i've been catching myself just lying in bed before i fall asleep; thinking. i remember someone saying in church that when you lay there without anything in your mind, and you just can't fall asleep, that's when the Lord is calling out to you. you rethink about your life purpose and spend an extra couple of minutes out of your day to really THINK about yourself, who you are, and what you are to do. this has been happening to me for the past couple of weeks.
i remember calling out to the Lord, not ASKING for ANYTHING but just calling out to HELP ME seek the things that are important in life. one of the things that is the most important to me is my mom and her well being. we've been struggling with financial issues for a while now because a dishonest person who worked for her took all of the business's money and left us rot in her own problems. but that's besides the point too haha
so that's all i did. i just called out to the Lord and spoke to him. one on one. just like a regular relationship a human being would have.
today, i was blessed with back to back calls from 4 different employers wanting to schedule an interview with me either this week or next week.
i knew the Lord practically placed these people right in front of me for me to choose. i was so set on focusing on school for my last year. this was a constant fight for me because i wanted to work (since i always have and wanted the constant income coming in) but after much talk, i decided that maybe focusing on school full time would be best.
when the Lord places something right in front of you for you to take and choose from, it's hard to give it up; especially since you've been praying about it.
HE is my answered prayer.
... i just hope that these interviews go well :)
Friday, May 7, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
untitled.
because every time i want to just give up, i'm telling myself that this (determination) will pay off in the end.
and i'm doing this not only for me, but for us.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
pursuit of happiness.
so at first i was just listening to this song because i like it. a lot.
then i watched the video probably about 10 times.
then, it got me thinking.
how can such a somber sounding song, have so much life to it?
"People told me slow my road. I'm screamin' out f--- that.
Imma do just what i want. looking ahead not turning back.
if I fall, if I die, know I lived it to the fullest,
know I lived and missed some bullets.
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know
everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold
i'll be fine once i get it.
i'll be good."
what is our pursuit? what is our happiness in our long, yet short, and fragile life?
me and Russy were laying down in bed one night, cuddling, turned out to be a two and a half hour conversation about life. just life. and i think we both determined what life is about: love. love from your family. love from your friends. love from yourself!
sometimes things might not go as planned, but in the end, there's love SOMEWHERE in life. someone is always willing to give you some. and once you let them, and start living your life, you'll be on your pursuit of happiness.
as CLICHE as this sounds... i know what the pursuit of happiness is for me: "love the life you live, and live the life you love." and i couldn't be happier.
different people have their different views, but i think that the one thing in common that we all strive and look for is: happiness. we've all had it at one point. or have it already. if you're not there yet... keep pursuing.
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