untitled.

because every time i want to just give up, i'm telling myself that this (determination) will pay off in the end.

and i'm doing this not only for me, but for us.

pursuit of happiness.

so at first i was just listening to this song because i like it. a lot.

then i watched the video probably about 10 times.

then, it got me thinking.

how can such a somber sounding song, have so much life to it?

"People told me slow my road. I'm screamin' out f--- that.

Imma do just what i want. looking ahead not turning back.

if I fall, if I die, know I lived it to the fullest,

know I lived and missed some bullets.

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know

everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold

i'll be fine once i get it.

i'll be good."

what is our pursuit? what is our happiness in our long, yet short, and fragile life?

me and Russy were laying down in bed one night, cuddling, turned out to be a two and a half hour conversation about life. just life. and i think we both determined what life is about: love. love from your family. love from your friends. love from yourself!

sometimes things might not go as planned, but in the end, there's love SOMEWHERE in life. someone is always willing to give you some. and once you let them, and start living your life, you'll be on your pursuit of happiness.

as CLICHE as this sounds... i know what the pursuit of happiness is for me: "love the life you live, and live the life you love." and i couldn't be happier.

different people have their different views, but i think that the one thing in common that we all strive and look for is: happiness. we've all had it at one point. or have it already. if you're not there yet... keep pursuing.

happy birthday to me!

cheers!!

to being 22! (i'm a day late but who cares.)

i think people come and go in your life for a reason.

unfortunately, heartbreak is inevitable during this "life" process.

but through the experiences, mistakes, and broken-ness, it has led me to you. and i can't imagine my life without you now.

"there comes a point in your life when you realize who matters,

who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will.

so don't worry about people from your past,

there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

to another fantastic year.

i'll be the first one to admit that the new years resolution i made, the next day, i broke it already. that doesn't mean i won't follow through! i have my love, my partner, pushing me towards my resolutions!

every night at 11:11, we wish (i never wish without him). i think my wish has come true.

2009 has been a WONDERFUL year.

they say that the way you spend your new years eve/new years is how your year is gonna be. i spent the start of this year the same way i spent last year: with my boyfriend and his family. just in the living room, watching tv, counting down. so i guess 2010 will be just as good as 2009.

sidenote: work hard, play even harder. (i got my grades --- another PLUS on how to start new years!!)

thank you.

... because we need more people like this.

i believe in the good in humanity.

can i get a #2?

i'm taking a class on how to teach children proper health and physical education. not only is this teaching me how to become a well rounded teacher, but it's opening my eyes on MY health.

i can't be going to two different drive thru's just to ease my cravings. (going to mcdonalds for their chicken nuggets and kfc around the corner for their wings). it shouldn't be like this. i should have enough self control. i don't want to wait until it's too late.

i want to be able to stop being lazy.. cuz i admit. i am one lazy ass mofo. i've always said, "you only live once." but why. why take that and blow it out of the waters and not even care about what i put into my body. i only live once, yes. but i want to live it at my fullest potential. my future and everything i have going for me is starting off wonderful. why end it a little earlier just because i wanted to have that one cheeseburger. i was able to cut out fast food couple years back and forget it completely. so why can't i do it now?

i will.